wih!

sy jeles xdpt join hangout dgn kamu2

well,my fault la kn..xcek emel..

nk wat cmne,tenet down

ni pn pki brodben hasil ikhsan encik beskut

xpe..next time la yer..

sbr je la nda..

hati

hati..

dh cukup kan masa yg berlalu?

knp masih berdarah lagi?

sampai bila nk terus begini?

cukuplah

ini bkn kau

kau bkn lemah sebegini

kadang kau luka

tp sembuh sekelip mata

kau nmpk hati dia?

diam menunggu

setia menanti

utk bertaut dgn mu

sebelum kau jatuh

dia dh sedia menangkapmu

tp knp masih kau keraskn diri?

mata mu kau pejamkan

akal mu kau butakan

jgn dicari hati yg kejam

yg bukan berpaksikn tuhan

yg hanya tahu manyakitkn

lupakan..teruskn perjlnn

Allah xjnjikn ianya jln yg mudah

tp yakinlah dgn ganjaran & kuasaNya

keringkan sisa titis air mata

cukuplah

hati...

dh cukupkan masa yg berlalu?

i dont believe in people anymore

i miss moscow and my hectic life there

feel like a foreigner in my own country.feel like i don't belong here

weird..i always thought malaysians are kinder,wiser,willing to help even a stranger who are in need compared to the russian..we were bombarded with an image that russians are rude,racists people..well..yes,thats true..but they still come forward and give a hand when you ask for help.

my recent experience thought me well...no matter how much you yelled for help here in Malaysia,no body...i repeat..NO BODY willing to come forward and help you...even they parked right by your side..they just look at you and resumed their own business..seriously?

reading yesterday news make me struck...about the 3 years old girl Umairah being hit by a man at public playground till death..lots of witnesses..but none came forward to help?and the reason is because they afraid,and they simply don't wanna get involve with the police..we,Malaysian..are NO LONGER HUMAN...no longer have a heart...call a police,ask that man to stop..its simple as that..if only some one had done that..Umairah would still breathing and live now..

I.. no longer believe that there are some of kindness in human hearts..no...at the end,we protect our own..we are SELFISH..we think bout ourselves before others..and that includes me.

s.a.d

woes

you wont understand this heartache

of losing something like that

i cant shake it out of my head

i don't care bout you anymore

please be dead as far as i care

before yes i breathed for you

my world revolved around you

but now i've seen what kind of a monster you've become

you bit these hands that fed you

that held you when you cried

that hugged you when you down

my pain is a joke

my tears make you laugh

what a jackass you are

guilty and sorry will never be in your mind

i'm not weak as you are

i can stand on my own two feet

unlike you,stupid uneducated monkey

yeah,thats how i curse

i call people monkey

i'm holding in my hand

this fragile heart of mine

that still bleeds,broken & torn apart

he said to give it to him

he'll nurse it back

he'll mend it back

the pain that you've caused

the wrong that you've done

he'll erase it from my head

i'm thankful for that

for girls who stood by my side

those long night of chattings,texts and calls

i love you all

for those who turn their backs and heads

thank you even more

for one girl

who always there when she needed something

and gone as soon as i need her

cant u read the situation?

i don't need you anymore

go away..like you always do

you are good at that

are'nt you?

you and that anorexic peppy of yours

can go to heaven

im praying for your happiness

i hope you can settle all your debts and manage to buy a car and a house

im not that shallow

nor i'll ever be as low as both of you are

yes my cracked nasal still hurts

but to hope for you to go to hell?

who am i to judge?

im not that good anyway

im not trying to be the "better person"

but i refuse to play the victim

im going cuckoo sumtimes

talking to myself is not normal

or weeping and mourning excessively

whats there to mourn for?

you are not a diamond in the rough

you are just a weak human as i am

im through feeling sorry for myself

im better than you

at least thats a fact

you are just a fraction of fiction in my life

yg besnye,u wont understand what i've said here

hurmmm..yup..

papai ~~~

who said steroid good for you?

i'm now under strict medication regime

need to tk progesteron 10mg everyday

side effects?

• hair falls which is so demm obvious
• lots n lotss of white head..muke menggerutu okes..
• making me hungry & eat all the time
• resulting in rapid weight gain..( yeah,blame the ubat!haha!!)
• rapid hair growth in all area ( gross... tp kt pale xnk tumbuh plk )
• now i've got a moustache
• feeling jittery all the time

and this will goes on for another 2 months

sutun keep gelakkn me coz b4 i always laugh at her bumpy face..haha..

pdn muke aku..deshum2!!

soaln & jwpn

sila jawap soalan2 dibawah dgn huraian yg sesuai.

jawapan mestilah berdasarkan situasi yang diberikan.

soalan 1 :

railing shower curtain yg x di drill

sturdy enuf utk sangkut plastik shower curtain

tp skali tarik mmg boleh tnggal.

para kaca dlm blk air,tepi bath tub ,bwh railing.

ape result bile sangkut baju bsh byk2 kt railing tu?

jwpn : duh..mestila railing tu akn jth,hempas para kaca tu,and pecah...barang berterabur.berus gg,ubt gg,pncuci muke,etc..org normal,akn kems blk..bukan setakat ckp railing tu jth dgn sndrnye..dan biakn je brg2 lain berterabur ats lantai blk air,dlm bath tub..tnggu org lain kemas.berat sgt ke berus gg and ubt gg tu?

soalan 2 :

minyak + air = xngam

minyak panas + air = minyak meletop letop

minyak terlebih panas sbb biarkn ats stove yg on smpi dh berasap + air = ?

jwpn: minyak akan terbakar.berapi.smpi hitamkn dinding blk air,api menyambar botol2 shampu,shower gel yg comel,conditoiner dan sbginye..shower curtain pun terbakar,ade kesan lecur walaupun xberlubang.loofah plak,hanya tinggl tangkai..yay!

kuali yg hangus kene buang.walaupun tu kuali pinjam.kene ganti baru.sape yg nk g beli?

sape yg scrub bath tub yg hitam terbakar?

soalan 3:

family sndr,baru blk bli groceries yg sgt byk.beras,telur,susu,aym,sayur,dan sebagainye.

ape tindakan susulan anda?

jwpn : tgk je atau buat2 xnmpk.teruskan tgk muvi/men fb.biarkn mereka kemas sndr.lepas ni mereka akn msk plak,

aku akn mkn tanpa perlu bgn dr kerusi sbb nt akn ade org hidangkan depan mata.lepas mkn,pnggn letak tepi meja.nnt ade org akn amek dan basuhkan.

bile ade makwe/kawan kol mntk tlg angkat brg,bersiap dgn segera..pergi tolong mereka dgn lajunye,dgn rela hati.

soalan 4 :

kehabisan air utk minum.mmg xminum air paip yg dimasak sbb klorin byk sgt.boleh nmpk kerak putih klorin dlm kettle.pergi kedai kali pertama.beli coke.minum sorg2.kali kedua pergi ke kedai.beli mineral water botol kecik utk diri sndr.apekah perkara bijak yg patutnye anda lakukan?

beli terus mineral water 2.5liter boleh kongsi ramai2.kalo rs kedekut,boleh claim blk duit tu.mineral water botol 200ml = 28rouble,botol 2,5liter = 55 rouble.beza sgt ke?siap tnye knp xminum air msk sndr.

what the what??!!

menarikkan situasi2 ni?

wooo...im turning into a sarcastic bitch...

ouch.....

dont read this..just mumbling to myself...

orang beriman memuliakan tetamu..

( article from myMetro)

i know that.

dont get me wrong

i love having guests

coz than i get a chance to feed em

hehehe...believe me..

no body ever leave my room/house on empty stomach..

but what to do with people whose keep coming EVERYDAY

until 4 - 5 am ( more if u didn't make up any excuses,reasons for them to leave)

and then banging ur door on 3pm the next day

and if you didnt open it

they buzz you through ym

called ur phone many times

msg u asking your whereabout

if u dont pick up,they msg/kol ur bf/gf plak

and to top it of,said "oh,ur home"

through fb's chatbox coz it appears

that u "online"..

and it start all over again...

than,all ur foods gone when they leave

u'll have to cook again to feed urself

and they come again an hour later

and u being a good tuan rumah

politely offer them the foods

and the cycle goes on..

even ur tid-bits is not safe anymore

no chocolates,or chips,or cookies.

even if u just bought a bottle of 2 liters coke

gone within hours

sometimes 2 bottles

and this time

they just helped themselves

to whatever they like

and they like EVERYTHING!

sometimes u allready set up a dinner for ur love one

but then sum1 knocked on the door

one of u expecting someone

and once the door opens

there he/she is

ur dinner got cold

or either u'll end up eating alone

coz ur bf/gf hv to eat with the "guest"

normal people would leave when they saw a set up table

but,no..not them..

they want to join in

and never leave

demmit!

oh,they joy of living in hostel....

pls..i'll trade up anything rather than this!!