be thankful

setiap hari,setiap malam,setiap masa

sy kena ingatkn diri sendiri

bersyukur dgn ape yg dr sndr ade

nikmat yg Allah bg terlalu byk.

melimpah ruah sebenarnye.

tp sy slalu lalai,senang cite,alpa dgn apa yg bukan mlik sndr

bak kata omputeh,grass is always greener on the other side.

hehehe

jeles bile bace blog kwn2 sek,dh berumah tngga,dh berzuriat

dah mampu beli kereta. bkn 1,bkn 5,tp 4 buah kereta..hehehe

hijau dgn envy bile tgk cik ainaa siap2 utk jejak negara asal sushi.

iri hati tgk kawan2 beli henbeg and henfon baru2.

tp sy lupe....

dengan zuriat,datangnye responsibilities.

cik ainaa kate sy lupe sy pernah duk kat europe lame2.

henbeg ntah brape byk tergntung kt bilik and tersumbat dlm almari.

ini bukti org xbersyukur

jadi tiap kali ade rs envy

sy jentik hati

ingat,Allah mahal adil,apa yg kita dapat ialah dari usaha kita sndr

couch potato xkn dpt tadah  duit dr kayangan

workaholic bru rasa manis usaha yg dituai

rindu plak ms belajar..

jadi , sila ingat hati...

jgn rs bangga diri.jgn rasa iri hati

Allah dapat tarik segalanya dgn mudah

tidak susah bukan erti tiada ujian

kesenangan juga adalah dugaan

sbb senang sgt timbul rs bongkak.

jgn jadi hamba yg dibenci Nya.

sila ingatkn itu wahai hati...

sy bising2

sy sedang buhsan smpi tahap nk tgk muvi pn xde mood..hebat kn?haha..so nk share beberape bnde yg de dlm pale sy ni...


1st - skrg sy makin xbole mkn bnde pedas.mmg sy bkn jns makan bnde pds2..tp ni makin lame makin sengal tahap gaban..if sy ckp,msti korg rs sy gedix..sy rs pedas bile makan sos cili..gedix kn?tp pedas sos cili tolerable lg..ade mknn, lg2 yg ibu msk..makaih.....air segelen ble abes,mayonis 1balang ble licin..dan akn skt perut slps itu..tu x kire mula peluh2,bibir rs pijar,pale gatal2..seksa2..tp..xholiau la kn mkn bnde xpedas..nme pn melayu..cet..wat2 mcm mat salleh plk..blah la..haha...


2nd - rmi kwn2 yg dh kawen.event kt fb pn sume psl kawen je memnjng..Alhamdulillah n congrtaz utk kamu2 sume..banzai! hehehe...n sy pn,asal kuar dgn en beskut,msti de je yg ulur pamplet pekej kawen..n bru sy tau.kawen pki byk duit..sy prnh nmpk org pnjm bnk ikat 15thn nk byr kawen yg seari.org yg kje mati2,tp gaji sebln wat byr bli kad kawen je...seyesly?huhu..sy pn mmg teruja sgt3 tgk bju glemer2,make up cntik2,mmg murah hati nk bg org bnde best2,nk tempah designer cake..tp utk kawen rm30k sblh pihak..mau kumpul bpe lame tu wei?.....xkn mntk mak ayh?pls dont tell me mntk kat mak ayh..mcm xmsk akal..sndr mau kawen..sndr nye duit la kn...sy xkawen g..sy xtau cmne..tp if mcmni..mcm menakutkn jer...wasatiah la...lps tok kadi kate sah,kire dh nikah la tu..haha..pandai ckp kn..tp nnt sy gak dok gedix2 kawen glemer2..insyaAllah..if ade rezeki..tp sy xkn abeskn 20k hanya utk bli fresh flowers..bg org mkn lg bgs..bg sorg 1 cupkek lg best dpt kn drpd dpt cwn kecik xble gune?cawan kecik aka shots glass..mybe ble wat shots air sirap?hehehe...


20k - ble beli kelengkapan umah byk giler..tgh usha katil kayu jati yg bertiang 4 tu...tnggu ye bby.duk diam2 kt kedai.xlame lg i dtg amek u k..


3rd - ramai kekwn yg pas kawen,berubah.jd timid.nape ye?asal ajk kuar..msti akn ade ayt ni.."tengok la dulu,kne tnye hubby dulu.tkt die xbg"......correct me if im wrong..adekah hubby mmg xbg utk anda kuar jmpe kawan2,atau hnye anda yg gedix nk berkate begitu? yesss..sy tau,kne hormat suami,kne mntk izin,kne .....
tp jmpe kawan,lepak strbux utk catch up..sy rs bnde picis kot.just jgn la ilng individuality kite sndr.sometimes,we need to be able to make a decision on our own.im sure,hubby2 tu pn akn phm..like he tell u evrytin he does kn..


ok,sy insan blum berumah tngga.sy xphm sgt bnde2 begini.tp sy mmg xble nk trime ayt2 tu...ade kwn sy,xble nk pursuit bnde yg die suke just sbb suami xbenarkn..too bad..coz she's damn good at what she does.she's brilliant,gojes,talented..im sad for her.im happy for her..i dunno.a mix feeling actually..pd yg jd suami,bertimbang rasala...yg jd isteri..dont lose yourself,and who you are.coz the moment tok kadi said sah..u are no longer free..u r bound with responsibility as a wife.but still,with a bit democracy..u still able to be urself.but the moment the doctor say congratz,its a boy/girl..thats mean,u r responsible for other human being.and thats mean,sacrifising urself.so,enjoy and appreciate this moment.coz after all,we are just human.we always look out for ourself first.

who said steroid good for you?

i'm now under strict medication regime

need to tk progesteron 10mg everyday

side effects?

• hair falls which is so demm obvious
• lots n lotss of white head..muke menggerutu okes..
• making me hungry & eat all the time
• resulting in rapid weight gain..( yeah,blame the ubat!haha!!)
• rapid hair growth in all area ( gross... tp kt pale xnk tumbuh plk )
• now i've got a moustache
• feeling jittery all the time

and this will goes on for another 2 months

sutun keep gelakkn me coz b4 i always laugh at her bumpy face..haha..

pdn muke aku..deshum2!!

skrg cpt sgt rs marah

well aku mmg pemarah,-ve type nye org

suke pk bnde bukan2

n if dh mrh,sgt2 ssh nk kawal

ape aku ptt wat utk ilngkn rs marah yg membuak buak ni?

cik olen pesan if mrh,baring..mesti lega..

tp aku nih..makin baring pn makin marah gak

ye..aku sekronik itu thpnye...

bile dh mrh,bp start high,n start rs dizzy

aku ni de hrpn utk kne hypertensi xlame lg kalo x control..

xmoo!!

smlm dgr ceramah dgn ustaz kalakr lg bes

bkn kt msjid..kat umh je..hehe

ustaz ckp...

1. if mrh dgn sape2..maafkn je..kte pn bkn bek mane pn..
2. if bertengkar pndpt dgn org yg jahil..diamkn aje..die xphm & xpndai..so jgn dilynkn..
3. syg kn org yg syg pd kite..nk pd org yg nk pd kite..if org dh xnk,mv on je..rmi lg org dlm dunie ni..Allah dh jadikn sume umat nye berpsngn..so,jgn risau.
4. jgn jd munafik dlm beribadat..ni ptt ltk 1st skali..( reminder to me )
5. sbgi umat Nabi Muhammad s.a.w,ati kte kne besar..jgn ati kecik..sket2 nk nngis,nk rs down..kite umt terpilih..jd jgn sng putus asa
6. syukur dgn nikmat free yg Allah berikn...knp aku sng sgt lalai dgn nikmat dunie?

byk lg yg ustaz ckp..tp ni yg paling melekat di ati...

marah bole diredakn n dikawal kn?

xmo sedey n down2 lg

idup kne teruskn

chaiyo2!!

see what i've got today..

jeng jeng jeng...

hehehe...

from beskut...tq bby..

aint he sweet?

in case if u all wondering,muat ke bju tu?

eyp! how dare u! hahaha..

but seyesly,mmg xmuat..he gv it to me as an insipiration for me to go on a diet..

so,my diet officially start from.......esok kot..kikiki...

abg posmen bz dtg my home dis past few days

yesterday i got dis from him...

jeng jeng jeng....

shawls,shawls,shawls and more shawls!

but this time i bought it myself online

love the colours n corak ..yay!

yes..im a shopaholic..while im not proud of it..

but still loving it..hehe...

me VS kedai2 mahal

perasan x,bile kite pegi kedai mhl2..

mcm MAC,guess,starbucks,levis,etc..

sales gurl/boy die jenis yg snobby,rude,xhormat org,

and yg plng skt ati...pndng kite,mcm kite xmampu nk bli brg dr kdi tu...

rs bes sgt la tuh keje kt c2..

bile kte msk je,mule la ikut kite ke hulur ke hilir..

kte pgg 1 brg,die btulkn blk.

kte tgk 1 baju,die lipat blk..

mcm kte nk sepahkn sgt brg2 kt kdi tuh.

tp peliknye,bile kte betul2 need their help..

sorg pun xde..

mane pegi sume?

kat mane2 pun same,kat msia ke,moscow ke..

msti ade je jns manusia begini..

mcm ari ni,aku beli buku kt kdi buku.

pas cashier tu mskkn buku dlm plstik,

die cmpk buku tu ats kaunter.

pdhal aku dh hulur tgn nk amek.

seyesly?

if kat msia,sah2 aku akn mengamuk..

tp kat cni..xyah la mmbazir masa.

silap2,aku yg kene halau dr kdi tu..

aku ingt g time aku nk bli sumtin for my mum

time tu kt kedai bonia,plaza angsana.

f.y.i angsana ni dr umh aku if drive dlm 5min dh smpi.

so no reason la nk bersiap bagai kn..

aku dgn selambenye pki suar track,tshirt dan selipar.

aku pun msk la bonia tu,belek2 brg..

tb2 sales gurl die tnye..

"awk ni bole ke nk beli?"

apekah reaksi yg sepatutnye aku tunjukkn?

aku beyond mrh sbb terkejut dgn soaln die..

so,i simply said...

"xmampu kak..sbb tu sy tgk2 je" and trus blah dr c2.

if de sesape yg pernah mengalami naseb yg same

sile la kongsi cerite

skite kene prthnkn hak kite sbgi pengguna

hehehehe..

24 roses

thank you for the roses baby..

speechless..

cookie....u really know how to make a gurl smile..

last day of the year

seriously?
wow! time does fly..

my new year's resolution?
entahla..be more positive i guess?
hah!
that's my last year resolution,and yet..look where i am today..
still a mess!
wahahaha...

later i'll upload more pics k.

its freezing cold & snow storm lately
make it impossible for me to tk pictures
just a few snaps,and my hand already hurt
oh yeah,reminder to own self..
please wear a proper winter attire
gloves & scarf is a MUST!

hmmm

i shud write sumtin more ilmiah in my blog

not just some random thoughts

or complaining bout sumtin .

any thoughts on dis?

p/s:yeah,i highlighted my typo.utk mereka yg bekerja sbgi spell checker,sile la betulkan...

err...

soo many plans...

soo little time...

paling penting...

soo xde budget!!

wahahaha!!

tioman?

langkawi?

europe?

japan?

aussie?

ne satu nih?

yg plng penting.im stuck here in frozen wonderland.

miss the sound of waves,sand on my feet,hot sunshines on my face.

here i got either solid ice or mud slushies..yuks!

reminder to myself : ayah ko bkn billionaire.bljr btul2.jgn duk sebok pk nk holiday jer!

yeah,i complain,bitching a lot in my blog..well..sape suh ko bace?

wahahahaha!!!

dont read this..just mumbling to myself...

orang beriman memuliakan tetamu..

( article from myMetro)

i know that.

dont get me wrong

i love having guests

coz than i get a chance to feed em

hehehe...believe me..

no body ever leave my room/house on empty stomach..

but what to do with people whose keep coming EVERYDAY

until 4 - 5 am ( more if u didn't make up any excuses,reasons for them to leave)

and then banging ur door on 3pm the next day

and if you didnt open it

they buzz you through ym

called ur phone many times

msg u asking your whereabout

if u dont pick up,they msg/kol ur bf/gf plak

and to top it of,said "oh,ur home"

through fb's chatbox coz it appears

that u "online"..

and it start all over again...

than,all ur foods gone when they leave

u'll have to cook again to feed urself

and they come again an hour later

and u being a good tuan rumah

politely offer them the foods

and the cycle goes on..

even ur tid-bits is not safe anymore

no chocolates,or chips,or cookies.

even if u just bought a bottle of 2 liters coke

gone within hours

sometimes 2 bottles

and this time

they just helped themselves

to whatever they like

and they like EVERYTHING!

sometimes u allready set up a dinner for ur love one

but then sum1 knocked on the door

one of u expecting someone

and once the door opens

there he/she is

ur dinner got cold

or either u'll end up eating alone

coz ur bf/gf hv to eat with the "guest"

normal people would leave when they saw a set up table

but,no..not them..

they want to join in

and never leave

demmit!

oh,they joy of living in hostel....

pls..i'll trade up anything rather than this!!

friends

remember this picture?

this moment?

this memories?

those smiles?

this is what happiness means right?

Giving Gift 101....the good and the bad

today beskut asked me bout my wishlists..

haha..

thats why i loveee december soo much!

december is a month of giving & recieving =)

i've got lots of friends and family whose birthday is in december

meaning many wishes and gifts to be given

and vice versa..hoho

i love giving people presents.and i do hope they like receiving it.coz i put much thought onto each gift to make it as personal,useable,thoughtful and memorable for them.

eg: like my litle sis nani si sotong.she loves ROXY.she needs a new pair of slippers. and its her birthday...

so i gv her a roxy slipper as her birthday present..it combines all the characteristics that i've mentioned above, rite?

and i hate it when people give me something that i cant use..like a music box,or a teddy bear,..its nice at first,but then it only gonna sit still collecting dust.no offense..but better a rm1 brooch than a rm20 teddy bear..but,sometimes im a useless junk giver myself..haha..Oppss...

and if i do hate the useless things that people gv me.i still keep em.coz sometimes they are nice to look at.its a piece of memory from our past life..no matter what..

BUT!

if someone really do hate my gift for them..someting that i allready gave soo much thought,well,granted... maybe it's just some stupid t-shirt or a globe filled with stupid snow flakes..and they gv it to someone else and even tell me about it?!my question to them is:

ARE YOU FREAKING OUT OF YOUR MIND??!!

ARE YOU KIDDING ME??!!

lets forget the fact that it cost me a lot of $$$..just think about it..as a HUMAN BEING (normal) don't you felt insulted,or angry if someone else does something like that to you?i bet you will...

and these are for someone who i believe that has NEVER EVER gave me anything at all,yet i never fail to gv her something everytime im come back from moscow.OR even wish me on my birthday,or goodluck for my exam,at all...

sometimes...being too self-centered is not good for you.

do you know that?

well..i know Russia is a blerghh country compared to Aussie ke,Uk ke..so a souvi from here is also blerghh..but still..a gift is a gift..treasure it or at least just keep it.Dont gv it to others...EVER!!

i'm tired of trying to be nice to people who don't even appreciate..coz it ends up making me feel like a fool.keep treating your friends like trash..sooner or later,you'll have non..oh,i forgot..you wouldn't mind that..after all,people always love you rite?

seriously?I'M DONE!!

p/s: please be piss out as much as u like..coz believe me..what u r feeling,is lesser than what i'm feeling right now.ciao..

ape ek?

i cant sleep & bored..got many things to do but no desire to do it at all..all im thinking is this little evil voices inside my head urging me to watch movie,facebooking & demmit!out of all times,why only now did i'm in the mood to blog??!!so bare with me for a moment k..hehe

ya,for anis..the "little evil voices inside my head" tu,one of em is yours..haha..ur voice keep saying..."nadiah...blk xmas ni pls......" demm u!!how can i say no to dat??hahahaha!!!

im honored wif her recent post..well aside from LOL non stop reading her tales..haha..seyesly la nis..just TALK to him oledi!!!haa,xpun paskn ubt + vit pd kwn2 die yg bek dgn ko,suh pas ke die...bernas x idea aku?hehehe...

so sorry la coz our chatting time xsame..demm dis greenwhich time!haha..aku blk klas,aku mndi n tdo..by the time aku bgn,ko plk dh tdo mlm..tnggu la yer,aku dh bribe adik aku smlm,suh die pujuk mak aku utk bg green lite bg blk mesia..mari la kite berdoa sesame..amin...

im getting sleepy.

till we've meet again..

ciao!

bila hati berbicara..cewah!

no dis is not a diary

jus luahan perasaan

coz i hate dis feelin rite now

perasaan menghadap hari2 terakhir kt umh..

i've been feelin like dis since 12 yrs old..

everytime abes cuti sek,n kne blk ke hostel,aku rs mcm myt idup..

restless,helpless,sume nye less...

but the difference is..dulu pas je smpi sek,jmpe kwn2..trus lupe ibu baba..

eventho,kdg2 tergenang gak air mate sket2..( hehe..poyo2 sedey )

pas kete ibu kuar pgr je,trus ble terlompat lompat mcm xingt dunie..

smpi ibu kne kol warden coz aku xkol umh dh 2mnggu!

ish3..

but now..

as soon as aku trn elevator kt departure tu..

ati mcm nk pecah

langkah rs makin lame makin berat

tp xprnh lg ade air mate kuar..

wktu slm,peluk,cium ibu baba pn

bole gelak2 lg

smpi baba tnye,awk ni xde rs sedey2 ke?

bkn xde rs sedey..

cume xble tunjuk kn je

once air mate ni mengalir..mmg xkn berenti la..

silap2 mau aku ajk mereka pth blk umh..

xkn la nk wat cmtuh kn?

aku pn nk ctrl ayu gak kt epot..

n beza nye perpisahan kali ini

once kaki jejak ke moscow

there is notin there for me

absolutely notin!

no frens,no joy,no fun,notin...

not that i dont want to hv fren

but,felt kinda enuf being stab on the front ( they all xmen stab blkg2 ni..)

and i started to felt everytin is wrong,n easily annoyed..

thats the price dat i hv to pay for being myself..

so,i jus kinda live my own life..

i dunno...

do i need frens?

jus be fren eventho i dun like it?

or jus keep living like dis?

kinda suck aite??

beskut always said..

frens actually is a people who need u wen in trouble

but forgot you in happiness..

so far,i do agree wif dat..so sad the world dat we live in..

i miss having frens like salina,piah,deqno,nana,anis,nik,kirin around..

or izit jus me yg prolem nye

coz they get along jus fine..

yup,it must be me...

hmm...

rs nk tdo,n bile sedar je,trus dh kt moscow..

so i dun hve to face all the hassle of packing,saying gudbyes,n all

its too much for me..

i miss my oldself..

not feelin depressed like dis

nor having doubts wif ownself

izit a cry of help?

or jus a wkup call?

either way..at the end..im back to me..

and jus me....

bad day ever...so far...

how bad/worse can your day be?

mine...

well..its all started wif a pleasant moning when i wk up kinda early

8-ish am is early for me k..hehe..

then i jus layed down ehem ehem

reading story book

memlskn diri mmg la sgt best..

till 9.30am..get up,hit the shower,get ready

n have breakfast wif baba

go to bank,get home

start doing laundry n all

till 12.30noon..

pretty decent monin eh?

yep.....i do tot so...

till 1.07pm

dat i remember to fetch my sis from skul

waiting punye waiting till 1.30pm

she still no where in sight

den,it hits me...

dem!she got klas tmbhn till 3pm la tu..

trpksela pth blk ke umh..

as i continued my "memalaskn diri" phase

chatting away wif salina

xsedar dh kul 3++

itu pun coz baba remind me by asking

"adik awk dh smpi umh lum??"

me wif such hurry dat i didnt change my shorts

den hv to cover my leg using towel yg still a bit damp from ampai

rush to her skul jus to found her kt tepi jln

dh half way nk smpi umh..

dem2!!

den my 3rd phase of "mlskn dr" started again..

again in my room wif all my meows

tb2 meow jerit kuat2

rupenye ade sekor moew sesat try to eat the babies

1 baby did injured

bleeding at jugular

again,rushing while panicking

kicking my sis who felt asleep (hahaha!!)

asking her to get ready,get the meow,open the gate,locked the door,etc..

drive like mad to vet

jus to realize dat i didnt bring my wallet

wen we oledi arrived

the vet plak can talk calmly

"ni bile kene ni?" ( sile bace dgn nada plng slow yg anda mampu..)

felt like kicking the vet..haha

den time byr..

vet : sume skali 40,ubt ni sapu 2x,n antibiotik bg abes

me : errrrr...ble x if sy dtg blk nnt.sy wallet pn xbwk ni.nk cpt sgt td..

vet: bole2..tp kene dtg b4 kul 8mlm.

me: ok2..sorry k..hehehe..

dem3!!

den went to ibu work's place

to get money from her..

coz even i get my wallet at home,i didnt hv any cash..huhuhu

on the way,as im rushing

tb2 terlnggr bumper odyssey on my left side..

makin la panik jdnye..

my sis oledi like.."awk ni angh...nape tu pn xnmpk!"

cet..xmembantu lngsung!

i tried to wait for the owner

but im in hurry plus my car was blocking the way

so i parked my car a bit further

as my sis went to get the the money

i tk a look at the car

dem!

calar balar pintu kete mak aku...tidak!!!

peluh2 cuak dh start kuar..

den my sis ckp,kete tu dh xde la ngah..

fuh..at least im not langgar n lari dgn sengaje la kn..

hehehe..

but,seyesly..sorry la pd pemilik odeyssey tu..

im truely am..

den rushed back to the vet

but this time its oledi 6.30pm

jln jam gile coz org blk keje..

calling my mkcik

ucu : yes..wat do u want...??

me : ucuuuu!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!kete ibu calar!!!!!!!!

ucu : ko ni angh...mcm ne la ble calar.?

me : nnt la story,ne bengkel still bkk g?kene polish b4 ibu tau!!

ucu : haa..dtg cni amek ucu,kite tgk truk ke x..

me : oh makcikku!ucu mmg bes!

ucu : cet!

luckily the vet n my mkcik's work place near e/o

by 7.00pm i fetched ucu

wait for her husband

n we go to the workshop together..

in my mind i oledi tot

abesla..ni mesti beratus ni..

coz mmg calar teruk gile..

in the car..

me : ucu byrkn dulu eh.xbwk wallet aa..hehe

ucu : ish,suke2 je drive lesen pn xbwk..t kene thn,xde ic..

me : ish,xmungkin!

my sis : nape asal jmpe ucu je mesti rs lapar ek?

hahahaha....sengalnye adik..

ayat indirect mntk blnje mkn..hohohoh..

7.45pm

arrived at the workshop

abg mekanik : teruk gak ni,abes cat die

me : haa??ala..cmne ni..( start panik attack lg )

abg mekanik : tp xpe,ble polish je..sbb x lekuk..

me : fuh..

as we waiting for my car we ate at a restaurant

i asked for tomyam aym..

the tom yam was super hot

huhuhuu..

but by 8pm,the car was ready

the calar was gone!

yeah!!! n the fun part is the charge was only rm50..

i dunno whether its expensice o not..

never in my life i sent a car to workshop b4..

but,boy..was im glad..

by 8.55pm

ibu kol me asking my whereabouts..

hv to lie to her..(bohong sunat) as dun want her to know..

huhuhuu..

alhamdulillah everytin goes smoothly after dat..

got home safe n sound..

n started writing this tales as to share it wif others

my never ending "no ong " day..

gile penat wooo.....

p/s: doakan dat my blackie do get well cepat.she's kinda trauma now..cian die kene cukur kt leher sbb nk sapu ubt td..knp la aku xttp pntu umh td!!!

p/s/s : siap ko kucing sesat!aku jumpe ko aku s...t2 ko 3,4x..hehehe