bila hati berbicara..cewah!

no dis is not a diary

jus luahan perasaan

coz i hate dis feelin rite now

perasaan menghadap hari2 terakhir kt umh..

i've been feelin like dis since 12 yrs old..

everytime abes cuti sek,n kne blk ke hostel,aku rs mcm myt idup..

restless,helpless,sume nye less...

but the difference is..dulu pas je smpi sek,jmpe kwn2..trus lupe ibu baba..

eventho,kdg2 tergenang gak air mate sket2..( hehe..poyo2 sedey )

pas kete ibu kuar pgr je,trus ble terlompat lompat mcm xingt dunie..

smpi ibu kne kol warden coz aku xkol umh dh 2mnggu!

ish3..

but now..

as soon as aku trn elevator kt departure tu..

ati mcm nk pecah

langkah rs makin lame makin berat

tp xprnh lg ade air mate kuar..

wktu slm,peluk,cium ibu baba pn

bole gelak2 lg

smpi baba tnye,awk ni xde rs sedey2 ke?

bkn xde rs sedey..

cume xble tunjuk kn je

once air mate ni mengalir..mmg xkn berenti la..

silap2 mau aku ajk mereka pth blk umh..

xkn la nk wat cmtuh kn?

aku pn nk ctrl ayu gak kt epot..

n beza nye perpisahan kali ini

once kaki jejak ke moscow

there is notin there for me

absolutely notin!

no frens,no joy,no fun,notin...

not that i dont want to hv fren

but,felt kinda enuf being stab on the front ( they all xmen stab blkg2 ni..)

and i started to felt everytin is wrong,n easily annoyed..

thats the price dat i hv to pay for being myself..

so,i jus kinda live my own life..

i dunno...

do i need frens?

jus be fren eventho i dun like it?

or jus keep living like dis?

kinda suck aite??

beskut always said..

frens actually is a people who need u wen in trouble

but forgot you in happiness..

so far,i do agree wif dat..so sad the world dat we live in..

i miss having frens like salina,piah,deqno,nana,anis,nik,kirin around..

or izit jus me yg prolem nye

coz they get along jus fine..

yup,it must be me...

hmm...

rs nk tdo,n bile sedar je,trus dh kt moscow..

so i dun hve to face all the hassle of packing,saying gudbyes,n all

its too much for me..

i miss my oldself..

not feelin depressed like dis

nor having doubts wif ownself

izit a cry of help?

or jus a wkup call?

either way..at the end..im back to me..

and jus me....