hmmmm.....

will u where like dis in public?

forget the fact dat she look like jus wk up n straight to dine out

forget the fact dat she oledi married n got childrens

or the fact dat its 8am in the morning

which is quite cold and windy even in malaysia....

or dat she is malay and a muslim...

if as a mother she wear like dis in public

den dats mean its ok for her gurl to do so later on rite?

and her husband?

jus smiling like kerang busuk wen we all look at her wife repeatedly..

forget bout the short shorts..

the top?

wat,she's out of bby tee?or jeans?

im literally threw up inside my soul

my heart aching

my head spinning

im not saying dat im such a gud muslimah

but this kind of things....

mk u wonder...

nilai2 agama makin nipis dlm hidup kite.....

im back bby!

back in moscow..

nice weather

got 5 new bby kittens..( later i'll post their pic...)

plus coc jumbo..hehe

n i think i handle all the gudbyes n berat2 ati kt epot tu..

pretty well..hehe

so,later i'll update more k..

see how moscow in fall look like..

bila hati berbicara..cewah!

no dis is not a diary

jus luahan perasaan

coz i hate dis feelin rite now

perasaan menghadap hari2 terakhir kt umh..

i've been feelin like dis since 12 yrs old..

everytime abes cuti sek,n kne blk ke hostel,aku rs mcm myt idup..

restless,helpless,sume nye less...

but the difference is..dulu pas je smpi sek,jmpe kwn2..trus lupe ibu baba..

eventho,kdg2 tergenang gak air mate sket2..( hehe..poyo2 sedey )

pas kete ibu kuar pgr je,trus ble terlompat lompat mcm xingt dunie..

smpi ibu kne kol warden coz aku xkol umh dh 2mnggu!

ish3..

but now..

as soon as aku trn elevator kt departure tu..

ati mcm nk pecah

langkah rs makin lame makin berat

tp xprnh lg ade air mate kuar..

wktu slm,peluk,cium ibu baba pn

bole gelak2 lg

smpi baba tnye,awk ni xde rs sedey2 ke?

bkn xde rs sedey..

cume xble tunjuk kn je

once air mate ni mengalir..mmg xkn berenti la..

silap2 mau aku ajk mereka pth blk umh..

xkn la nk wat cmtuh kn?

aku pn nk ctrl ayu gak kt epot..

n beza nye perpisahan kali ini

once kaki jejak ke moscow

there is notin there for me

absolutely notin!

no frens,no joy,no fun,notin...

not that i dont want to hv fren

but,felt kinda enuf being stab on the front ( they all xmen stab blkg2 ni..)

and i started to felt everytin is wrong,n easily annoyed..

thats the price dat i hv to pay for being myself..

so,i jus kinda live my own life..

i dunno...

do i need frens?

jus be fren eventho i dun like it?

or jus keep living like dis?

kinda suck aite??

beskut always said..

frens actually is a people who need u wen in trouble

but forgot you in happiness..

so far,i do agree wif dat..so sad the world dat we live in..

i miss having frens like salina,piah,deqno,nana,anis,nik,kirin around..

or izit jus me yg prolem nye

coz they get along jus fine..

yup,it must be me...

hmm...

rs nk tdo,n bile sedar je,trus dh kt moscow..

so i dun hve to face all the hassle of packing,saying gudbyes,n all

its too much for me..

i miss my oldself..

not feelin depressed like dis

nor having doubts wif ownself

izit a cry of help?

or jus a wkup call?

either way..at the end..im back to me..

and jus me....

congrats piah!!

congrats to my gurl piah!!

for getting a job!!

as a sales engineer if a recalled...

no idea watsoeva on wat the job actually is..

hehehe

but,am so heppy for her!!

so,gudluck n all the best for u dear!!

thank you adek ku!!

look what my sis bought & brought for me from kuantan...

well,i know the bag speak for itself..

tk a peek inside...

tadaaa!!!

yeee!!!

well,its not a suprise actually..

coz i asked her to bought it for me as i cant find it in jb..

but at the end,she jus gv me as a gift?hmmm....

nway...so heppy....

hahaha...yup!im dat crazee over starbuck..LOL..

thank you ibu!!

I woke up last wed morning

wif this at my table

littmann!!

(thank you soo much ibu!!! )

my second 1 actually..

got a sad story behind the 1st one..huhu..

nway,was so happy and still am..

i tot ibu dont remember that i asked for this before..

and i dont even think dat i got a slight chance to get a new one..

i mean,once u lost it..den pndi2 la beli sndr..huhu

plus its in burgundy

my last one was grey..

i do asked for purple..hehe

but,wat the heck..

it still pretty rite?

shud name it later on..

n jus hoping that it will stayed wif me till the day im retiring

hahaha..

crocs?

ok,i got my self a pair of crocs

bought it from a non - crocs - store..

which the sales boy said to me

this is the original limited edition..

when i asked him

how come its so dam cheap?

after i asked him,izit ori or not??

29.90 for a pair for crocs?

hahaha..

come on la..

ckp je la limited imitation...

but i stil bought it coz its hard to find a crimson crocs in jb

plus,who noes whether its ori or not..hehe...

a closer view

an upper view

n tapak view..so any1 who own an ori crocs,go grab ur shoes now,n compare it to mine!!

hehehe...

so now u noe my secret....keep it hush k!!

or i'll hunt u down...

hehehe...

seyesly..