a fren in need is a fren indeed..huh?

aiyak! hurmm..how to say this? politely w/o menyinggung hati sndr or hati org len?
ok,hajimete! sy skrg dlm fasa fungguskn diri..bkn sbb sy nk lari dr mslh ke ape,tp sy tgh pk ape nk wat utk ms terdekat ni..thus,sy terase xde mood nk kuar,berpar-tay,ber holiday sprti biase..lgpun..main reason nye..xde ongkos..so,duk je la umh diam2.betul x?

arigato gozaimas pd yg risau and care pd sy..teacher anis yg bz2 pn rajin gk melyn kerenah sy eventho sy msg her kul 3,4pg.xksh la die bls 3 ari lmbt pn..lol!..dgn tenet yg mcm snail and chipsmore ( snail = lambat,chipsmore = kjp de,kjp xde))wehehe...doc abbo,yg sudi bgn mlm2 tmn sy..msg la kul bpe pn,die sudi bgn n lyn sy..huhuhu..i lap u laling..i cop u jd private doc i k!wee~~~

skrg sy not in the state to say or answering anytin..Y?? sbb sy pn xtau jwpnnye..sbb tu sy perlu ms nk pk..sy tau awk risau/care/syg pd sy..but maap..care awk sy xberkenan.yep sy nmpk mcm xksh.tp bile pale tgh serabut,hati tgh sakit..ade org dgn salam pn xbg,nk bg ayt xbesh nk bace..soleee...sy try sabar..awk pn tau,sy hot temper.sy ckp pe sy xsuke dpn2,then & there..sy manusia biase.sy snapped bile awk over limit...hontoni..sy xperlukn org ckp kasar dgn sy skrg ni..if nk tlg sy,ckp baik2..sy xnk sy nek drh..sy ckp bnde bkn2..kite putus frenship..kn xbes cmtu..sbb sy de tendency & history ckp tnpe pk,den org nek menci dgn sy..huhu (-_-)

so,in konklusi..maap if de trslh bahase..sy nk bljr kontrol mrh skrg ni.u r not helping if u trus nk kritik/tlg care mcm tuh..im having a major set back in my life rite now.i have to overcome it on my own..so doesnt matter bpe lme sy nk amek ms nk balik semule jd hyper mcm dlu..sy pn xsuke state skrg ni.sy xhrp awk phm..yup,btul awk ckp..better u dont know anytin..so u x worried..sorry sbb sy cari u bile sy sedey..sy xbngge sy de mslh besar cmni..sy xnk smpn/lari..teacher anis ckp,sy kuat..sbb tu Allah bg sy ujian maha besar mcm ni..i believe her words..cume,hehe...will power tu kureng ler..

awk tau sy kn?sy xlemah lembik mcm ni..tp sy perase..bkn ajinomoto,tp touchy feely nye org..lala...mekaseh k awk..muah2!!..sy xjauhkn diri dr awk..dgn yg len2 pn sy jrng msg skrg ni..sy msg en beskut je 24/7..awk jg dri n kje rjn2..pas raye nnt,kalo sy de ongkos..sy n teacher anis dtg lawat awk ,okes?

sy nk tdo..sy xble tdo 1mlm..oyasuminasai~~~